Feeling Good

Yesterday I started logging my food again. I have been terrible at this - I will log breakfast, but by lunch I say "oh forget it" or start eating so much I'm afraid to log... but yesterday I logged everything I put in my mouth and did really well. I'm hoping if I continue to do so I can break my habit of overeating and get my rapid weight gain moving in the OTHER direction.

I have been doing pretty well at doing some form of exercise every day. Taking a walk, a bike ride (which hurt my backside like you would NOT believe), 30 Day Shred with Brady - but today was the first day in a while that I got back on the treadmill. Here are the results:

How's that for a decent burn? I feel really good about it. For some people it would be nothing, but for me it was a lot. I kept hearing people say that if you're struggling with running go slower, so I went with that. I walked at 4 and "ran" at 5, with an incline of 2.0. I really need to work on getting my breathing under control (any tips with that are appreciated). My first running portion lasted 5 minutes, and every one after that was at least 2-3 minutes. I tried not to walk for longer than 90 seconds at a time. Baby steps, right? I feel good about it though and that's what matters the most.

If it isn't raining I plan on getting a walk in with Brady today too, if he's up for it. I can't tell you how much I love having more time to spend with him... it's awesome.

Jess from Run With Jess posted a picture on Facebook today and I really liked it so I'm going to end today's entry with it. We're all Wonder Women!

FBF

I don't want to be a fraud. If I'm going to blog about getting healthy I need to do more than talk the talk. That's why today is the beginning of a new phase for me... it's called FBF. For those of you that don't like profanity, stick to the initials - because it stands for Fuck Being Fat.

In the two weeks since I've lost my job, I have gone in a severe downward spiral. Basically what I've accomplished includes catching up on my shows that I haven't watched in ages (Weeds, Californication, and Nurse Jackie - check, check, check). I haven't even attempted portion control, and often I end up binging and overeating to the point where I just feel sick. I don't know if it's boredom, or some twisted idea that eating makes me feel better (it doesn't) - all I know is that it drastically needs to change. The way I look naked right now is just disgusting, and I hardly fit in any of my clothes. I'm basically out of the normal weight range for my height (5'10", weighing in at about 175 right now).

Ultimate goal weight? 145 - my pre-pregnancy weight. I got there in 2010, I can do it again - but the healthy way this time. First goal weight? 155. I stayed there for years, I know I can get there and maintain it. Biggest thing for me is to stop the binging, work on portion control. We don't keep a lot of unhealthy foods in the house so I've got a pretty good start there - but I eat enough for three people and my metabolism can't deal with that.

What brought on the "enough is enough" attitude? I'm tired of being depressing. I don't want to be whiny, I don't want to be a downer. No amount of exercise is going to make up for my eating habits. I ate an entire Tombstone pizza yesterday. By myself. I felt miserable the rest of the day. It's insane. I can't believe I'm admitting that on my blog, where anyone that knows me can read it - but there you go.

Mindless eating needs to stop. Brady and I took a 3.1 mile walk yesterday, and also attempted to do 30DS. I can't get through level one without wanting to stop. That's embarrassing.

There is no way I'm going to be ready for the Cellcom 5K in May. I'm doing it no matter what, even if I have to walk the majority - but by the end of this summer I want to be able to run an entire 5K, and that's not going to happen until I make some serious changes.

I have a phone interview on Monday with a healthcare organization. It's just for a casual position but at least it's a start. The CEO of my former organization had his last day yesterday. I don't know if they terminated him or what, but if he was quitting you would assume he would give notice so I'm thinking they let him go. Couldn't they have done that before he pushed for cuts? Before I lost my job entirely? Sheesh.

Currently reading Slim for Life by Jillian Michaels. Say what you want, but I dig her. Everything I've been reading about aspartame lately has me ready to give up my Crystal Light energy packets. I'm going to switch to Crystal Light Pure and Great Value naturally sweetened. I did great on water intake for months but I used a LOT of those energy packets so I need to get away from that.

I really hope my family will be on board with me. It will be so much easier if I have support. Thankful that it seems like warmer weather is FINALLY here to stay because that will help with the "being active" portion of my life change - but food is my real problem. I'm ready to tackle this. FBF. I don't want to look like this anymore.

Boston and the weather

Before I say anything else, I just want to say that my heart goes out to those in Boston that were affected by today's tragedy. I can't believe that a person/people are capable of something so senseless... it's tragic. For those that may not have heard what happened, check out the following article here - but be warned, some of the pictures are rather graphic.

Events like this just make you want to hug your kids a bit tighter. Brady came home from school and asked if we could take a walk together since the weather is actually decent so I jumped at it - ever since he turned 8 a few weeks ago he hasn't wanted to spend a lot of quality mother/son time... it's been all about daddy. We dug out Jordy's leash and I used my phone to map a route and we went 3.16 miles. It was definitely a leisurely walk - it took us nearly an hour! Jordy wanted to sniff everything in sight and we stopped whenever a car drove by. It was crisp and cool with a strong breeze but the sun was shining and it felt wonderful. Tomorrow is supposed to be nice too, but after that the temps are supposed to drop again and we're supposed to have more rain/snow mix. I'm SICK of this never-ending WI winter. Bring on spring!

This is what our yard looks like right now. I am definitely ready for the rest of that snow to melt... but at least the sun is out!

P.S. Finally got on the BlogLovin' band wagon. Can't believe it took me so long - love their app so I can read posts from the blogs I follow on my iPhone/iPad!

Music is a MOTIVATOR

Why do I constantly make the same dumb mistakes? At least every third workout I eat too much before I get on the treadmill and then I struggle throughout the whole thing. UGH. I am much better when I just have a small bite of something or just some water and then eat a bit afterwards. But at least I still put the time in! Focus on the positive.

Wearing my Brooks running shirt today - it's moisture wicking and generally awesome. If you like the shirt (the picture on there is a cupcake, sorry I cut it off but I'm all about the saying) you can find it on sale here - don't forget to also check around online for coupons/promo codes!

When we got our treadmill I imagined using it while watching my tv shows. I don't know how some people can do it, but I can NOT watch TV while running. If I'm just doing a brisk walk then it's fine, but the minute I start jogging I can't concentrate on what I'm watching. Music is my motivator, I work out much better when I've got some motivational tunes going. Here are some of the highlights from today:

Paul Oakenfold ft. Brittany Murphy - Faster Kill Pussycat
Skrillex - Bangarang
Technotronic - Pump Up The Jam (everyone should have this. seriously.)
Breathe Carolina - Blackout

My musical tastes are all over the place, so don't expect me to stick to any certain genre with my musical highlights. I also love being introduced to new music, so if there is a favorite of yours that you'd like to share I'm all ears!

I tried Greek Gods Vanilla Cinnamon Orange greek yogurt today and loved it... which is strange because I don't care much for most greek yogurt. The fruit on the bottom stuff makes me wanna hork, honestly. But this stuff is delicious. Doubt I'll be getting it often since it's kinda pricy at my local store but for an occasional treat it's great. Maybe I could take some vanilla greek yogurt and put some cinnamon in it... but how to get the orange flavor in there? Any tips, aside from putting orange slices in it?

Found this on Pinterest today and I love the saying, so I'm going to end with it:

I don't think I've hit habit status yet, but I'll get there!

No More Excuses!

With all of the drama happening at work, I had totally abandoned my fitness regimen. It was stupid really, I almost had to actively avoid using the treadmill... it was like I was punishing myself for something that isn't even my fault. No idea why I would do that to myself - but I hopped on for the first time in about two weeks today and it felt great. I feel even more out of shape, but I'm ready to get back on track.

As you know from my last post, due to restructuring my position at my clinic was eliminated. I put in for another internal position but was turned down because I am not able to work later than 5:30 p.m. My last day was Friday. It was very bittersweet, I am going to miss everyone at my clinic a lot. One of the ladies from HR said I am definitely eligible for re-hire and also said I could use her as a reference. One of the providers at my clinic wrote me an amazing letter of recommendation, and the other provider made a point to talk to me and let me know that I would be missed and he really enjoyed working with me. The girls made yummy desserts for me and they all signed a "Best Wishes" card. So all of that made me feel really good. Except for the whole part where I no longer have a job.

But guess what? This just means that for now, I have more time to spend with my amazing kid and more time to spend on getting healthy and active. I am registered for three 5K's so far - in May, June and August. I'm definitely signing up for at least one more as well (glad I registered early when I had the money to do so, things will be awfully tight now!) and by the end of the summer, I am going to run the whole 5K. Right now I'm working on stamina, going the distance. Once I have that down I will work on speed. I know I can do this.

So here's my burn for today:

Something I'd like to do regularly on this blog is to share some of the music that I like to use during my workouts. I'd also love to hear what you've been listening to lately so feel free to share in the comments! A few of the songs that came up on my playlist that made me extra happy today are:

The Guild - I'm The One That's Cool
Black Eyed Peas - Rock That Body
Robert DeLong - Global Concepts

Garmin just came out with some new colors for the Forerunner 10. I'm kind of in love with the new purple color, and have dropped a (not so) subtle hint to Pete that ah hem, Mother's Day is coming up! Look at this beauty:

SO much cuter than the pink - just because I'm female, doesn't mean I like pink - and for some reason I like it even better than the green!

On an unrelated note, I purchased a curling iron a few weeks ago and tried it out for the first time the other day. Gave myself some beachy waves and was fairly successful. The Wisconsin weather has been ridiculous lately, we keep getting rain/sleet/snow and giving myself a fun summery hairstyle was my way of rebelling. What do you think?

Today is Pete's one day off for the week so we're off to do some grocery shopping and maybe catch a movie. Happy Sunday everyone!

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